Carolyn Ransom

They say everyone likes a good conflict.  Personally, I’m not going to vouch for no thing.  I mean, I will admit, me now compared to me a year ago goes head first into much more conflict.  Me a year ago was like, “Hell no, I’m going to back away quietly and pretend I saw nothing.” Me now is more like “Excuse me? What did you just call me?”  But that’s more of me finding myself in conflict and actually dealing with it than it is me just finding conflict…uh wow hi ramble.

I’m not exactly why that all just spilled out, I really only came to note that I’m having this internal conflict of deciding whether to journal here or journal in my notebook.  I always journal-ed in notebooks from Jr. High all through my senior year of high school but I also started to blog at the start of high school so..it’s hard for me to say “well, I’ve never been much of a paper person” or “I’m really dedicated to my Xanga.” Sigh, sigh.  Mostly I just feel like I connect more to my emotions when I’m holding a pen as opposed to in front of a computer screen, but maybe I’m just crazy.

Today, my sister and I decided we didn’t want to scrounge our apartment for food anymore, and we headed out for some groceries.  It’s weird to actually admit this out loud (out type?) but coming home with a bunch of bags of groceries made me feel so…grown up. Ugh I hate that term..anyway, it was weird.  As is most of what runs through my head/heart.

I am far too comfortable on this couch.  I am going to fall asleep and not be very happy 2 hours from now when I wake up and can’t fall back asleep again…

Think I’m done rambling for tonight.

olivekermit asked: Look we need to hang out sometime, and legit do it, because I miss you as well!

Yeah dude!  How about after the holidays? haha Until then I need every last free minute for shopping because I’m working a lot :p But yeah no let’s really do it.  We got  lots to catch up on

I’m all out of words.

Hello world!  I’m not exactly sure why but I’m in a bloggity blog mood right now. 

Ugh today was such a terrible beyond terrible day.  I most definitely woke up on the wrong side of the couch..it wasn’t like I was in a super bitchy mood or snapping for no good reason, it was just like the bad things that I can usually overlook were sticking like a thorn into my side.  And on top of my already touchy mood the customers at work were just HORRIBLEE. 

I was talking to Kip today(big surprise) and I was telling him some stories about various customer-cashier outbursts I’d been a part of or witnessed since starting this job.  He asked me if customers were usually rude or loud and I said most are at least rude, some are rude and loud and he said people aren’t like that there (England). Maybe that’s all it is.  We’re a bunch of dopey Americans and we just want want want.  That my friends is a recipe for dsaster, let me tell you..

A coworker of mine gave me a mood bracelet last week as a gift.  Mostly it showed me feeling love and relaxation.  Today was off the charts with agitation. Kind of funny!

Well, currently I am clearing all the goods off of my laptop because it once again is down (woo.) while watching the season finale of Sons of Anarchy..also, I just realized that I’ve been speaking parts of this out loud while typing.  Now I’m wondering if my sister is awake or not.

K GOODNIGHT!

…so we can walk away with no regrets.

Surely, you’ll be missed.